K so i wrote a song the other night. now the thing about my songs is, they write themselves. the one i wrote yesterday, i wanted to be happy. but it ended up being really sad, and the last two lines are "but he couldn't think how and she didn't survive, and this is the story of everyday life."
depressing, but i can't change it, cuz its not mine to change. the song wrote itself.
but my dad, he came into my room and asked to see one of the songs i wrote, and my book was open to that one. he read it, and was like wow kate, thats really sad. and i was like uh yeah, i told u it was...but then he said this: its not really everyday life. it doesn't happen very often, its actually very rare. you should change verse and make it happy. seriously?!?! it doesn't happen very often?!?! it happens every single day. i told my dad that, and he said well yeah, but compared to the number of teens its not significant. now pardon my french, but what the hell?!?!?!?!?!?!?!
teen suicide isn't significant?!?!?!?!?! i'm pretty sure its really damn important to the kids families and friends. each teenager is a life. not just a random that doesn't matter. they're a living human being, and teen suicide is a big deal. and yes, it is everyday life. this is important to me.
i don't know what posessed him to say that, but its definitely not true. it really upset me. which i didn't let him see, cause i don't want to have to explain my depression crap to him. it wouldn't do any good and i doubt he'd understand.
but, please understand. teen suicide is people killing themselves. its real. its huge. and it happens every single day. not just once ina while. and the number of teens compared to the number of suicides doesn't matter. because even if its just one in a million, that one matters.
I love you boo. I'm glad you're passionate about this. Follow what you're passionate about. (Not as in kill yourself... as in try to help the ones who think they should)
ReplyDeleteI totally agree. Maybe statistics don't throw society into a frenzy, but I believe there is so much more to life than numbers and facts thrown aimlessly around. I would love nothing better than to show someone that life is worth living. The only difference between me and my friend (who is gone) is having God in my life. Thanks for talking about this Katie, and for caring.
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