Failure.
Shattered.
Of course, theres still another opportunity.
And yes, this WAS just the easiest way.
But I'm still upset, and will require the necessary time to recover.
Because of a test I missed last semester in my psychology 101 class, and because my professor refused to allow me to do anything to make it up, I received a C in the class, which is simply not allowed for nursing majors and my conditional early admission to the Nursing Program was rescinded.
And I'm pissed.
Pissed at Kemmer for ruining my first semester of college for me.
Pissed at her for refusing to help me learn, refusing to allow me to do anything to make up the missed credit, but mostly pissed that because of her I have to work my ass off to get back into the program, and even then I might not be able to get in.
The only other major I'm even slightly interested in is Psychology, and with 2 attempts at Psych 101, both resulting in a grade lower than a B, I highly doubt I can even do that.
Honestly, it feels like the love of my life just told me we would never work out, unless I changed everything about me.
That no matter how hard I tried, it still wouldn't work out.
And I don't know what to do right now.
I know what you mean. I was pissed too when it finally sunk in that there was maybe a 0.000000001% I could be a vet. I think we focus so much on what we want and we forget God is in complete control. Although I really wanted to feel like God was calling me to be a vet he really wasn't and now I'm just playing by his rules....sometimes :P Remember when you really wanted to go to Africa, what made you change your mind? Was it your strong will to be a nurse or was God calling you for something. Take so time to do some soul searching and waiting for God to give you an answer. Remember he will never leave you and God does always supply.
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