Oooo Boy

Ever had something happen, something big, and there were only a few people you could tell because everyone else would freak out and quite possibly not talk to you because of it?

Sometimes my life is the most complicated thing in the entire world.

Ok, probably not the entire world.

But at the time it seems like it.

I'm good at adapting.

I love change, and most things don't faze me the way they would other people.

But certain things cause me to freak out and not know how to react. I don't know whether I should be upset, or happy, or any other emotion.

Which just leaves me confused, and confusion is not a state of mind I enjoy.

Leap of faith.

Something I'm horrible at doing.

Trusting that the people you need there will actually be there.

I've found that often they aren't.

At least not in the way you need them. They don't support the way you hoped they would, or they support something you need them to discourage.

And sometimes they aren't there at all.

Sometimes what you did is too much for them, and they leave.