myspace steals creativity. its true. i've been on it just about everyday for the past 3 years. and i've been without it for...idk 3 weeks? almost 4? no clue. but i've never been this bored. never. when i was on myspace, and complained of extreme boredom, it was nothing compared to this. i've sent over 13,000 txts this month. the most i sent before this was a lil over 10,000. how insane is that? and it hasn't even been a whole month yet. i seriously can't think of anything to do. i could do homework i guess...but thats boring. like everything else. also, i can't think of anything important to blog about. so i'm sitting here writing about how bored i am. weird, huh? oh well. hmm. what to write about...haha.
easter is usually my favorite holiday. definitely is this year, and for a very wrong reason...i get to get on myspace and facebook again. i mean, i still love it for what it means to me, but i'm more excited then normal. is that bad? i love the idea of easter. the fact that Jesus beat death, for me, and for all the horrible things i've done. i feel so free on easter. the rest of the year i tend to lose that feeling, but easter makes everything ok again. at least for a day. but adding the whole myspace/facebook excitement makes it feel wrong. like i'm only looking forward to it for those reasons. definitely not true. idk. i know its part of why i'm looking forward to it. but its not all. this isn't making sense...haha.
that idea kinda died. ima try something else. maybe it'll make more sense...
hypocrites. everyone is one at some point. i'm usually pretty tolerant. which has got me in trouble. not because i was tolerant of a hypocrite...its a different story but i'm being random so i guess i'll explain. the main reason andrew broke up with me, the way i see it, is because he felt we were both changing and losing sight of who we were. i'm perfectly fine with me changing, because i'm still trying to figure out who i am. i'm 16 for goodness sake. theres no need to know exactly who i am and never change. but changing bothered him for some reason. and while i couldnt' see the changes, he apparently found his to be big enough to scare the crap out of him. and he was pretty upset that i let him change and didn't stop it. he also felt i thought i needed to change. definitely not true, but whatever. it bothered me at first, cuz i was like what the eff. i don't need to change. but i don't rly care anymore, cuz i know whats good for myself, and he wasn't it. but anyways. i don't mind other people changing, and i'm not gunna tell them what they can and cannot do. which is why even if i had seen the changes, i wouldn't have said anything unless i thought they were hurting him. which was why he broke up with me. or something. anyways.
back to hypocrites. my mother is the biggest hypocrite i've ever met. which wouldn't be a problem if she'd at least admit it. but no. she won't. i'm a hypocrite. i admit this. everyone is. but if u refuse to admit it, and are always doing or saying something hypocritical, its gunna piss me off. majorly. i'm pretty sure thats my biggest problem with my mom. example: a couple nights ago, at devotions, she talked over my dad (who happens to be in charge of devotions, or so she says) for the first half. not even kidding. she was talking to joshua pretty much the whole time. so then my dad was talking to anna, for like 5 seconds joking about something, and she was explaining some part of the devotions to josh, and she turns to my dad and practically yells "one voice at a time! no two people talking at once!" which definitely pissed me off, and apparently did the same to my dad cuz he actually turned to her and asked if that went for all the time. to which she replied of course. and asked why. and he was like "well are u gunna practice what u preach?" apparently she has never been asked that, cuz she had a really confused look on her face, so me and my dad took turns explaining it to her. and her reply was "i'm human, i'm not perfect" i was like wtf. only i didn't say that out loud...i'd be burned alive. but seriously. does that make any sense?
i think this blog is long enough......haha
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