since 7th grade i've been best friends with chris wilsen. i've thought of him as my big brother, and whenever anyone said anything about me liking him i protested, because i didn't. and i always said he'd always be my big bro and nothing more. i never wanted to like him, because that'd be weird. i mean seriously. having a crush on the guy u've told everyone is ur brother? not exactly appropriate! but last week...not exactly sure when...i realized i like him. not like a super huge crush. and i'm definitely not falling in love. but i do like him. and then i was informed by multiple sources that he likes me and has since 7th grade. which wasn't rly a surprise, since i think i'm pretty amazing...lots of guys like me. but...he had been telling me he thought of me as his sister. hmm. oh well. he asked me out on saturday nite, and i'm beginning to realize that he likes me way more then i like him. i don't think it'll be a huge problem. but i'm not really treating him any differently then when we were just friends. but the fact that he's liked me for 5 years, and i've liked him for maybe a week...kinda weird. lilli was way more excited then i was when he asked me out. is that right? i'm honestly not sure. my whole mindset about this relationship is different from any other. usually i'm very physical in relationships. but with chris...idk. we hold hands. we've kissed. (and yeah, its been 2 days.) and we've been cuddling for years. but i don't rly want physical in this relationship. and we haven't rly talked about our relationship....meh. it'll work out. i guess...its just really weird. i thought he was the last person in the world i'd like, not because he's unlikable or anything, he was just my brother. hmm...oh well.
our entire 6-group is dating. thats gunna make the most epic triple dates of all time.
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